Its easy to say

It's easy to say you care. But can you prove it? Do yo have anything to show for it?

Don't be mistaken. I'm not talking about my girlfriend. She's good to me...only when there's people around she tend to be shy. Hahaha...

I'm talking about my sister.

Sometimes I don't know how to approach the problem. Sometimes I just want to scold her in her face. But I don't think it will work. Just a few days ago, my friend, XXX, was complaining to me about his sister also. Not helping our with family chores and not putting in the effort to help the family. Times are bad. When I hear him talk about her, my sister's image just pops into my mind. I also told me friend about my sister as well... After that we both went silent...

Just a month ago, I wrote some stuff on the family white board. And my sister and her boyfriend...and my little sister...wrote on the board and declare their determination to help the family...out of its financial depression... So easy to say...

Part of my plan to alleviate the family's financial troubles is to help my dad do his accounts. Hopefully his business can function properly and perhaps he can help out as well. One day I brought home the invoice file and was looking for a volunteer to type it into the accounting system. (Funny thing...my mom bought the system 2 yrs ago for $800 and no one used it...i took a look and began using it...bit by bit..) No one offered...well its saturday night... I decided to see if my Sister was really determined to help. I asked her to help type in.
"I will do it tomorrow."
"Tomorrow morning you are going to church. Mid afternoon then come back. Sure wouldn't do one. By the time I ask you to do tomorrow it will be night time and you will say you are too tired and will ask to do it tomorrow and it will never get done."
"I just don't want to do it ok?"

Well done... Say you care...but do you ever lift a finger to do anithing? Household chores I must arrow then she will do. And after a LOOoooong while then she do. Always busy doing some other thing.

She is an escapist. We all are. I'm an escapist too but I have realise that escaping from problems will never help because it will always come back to haunt you. So I tend to go head on with problems now. Especially those that I feel are easy to solve as long someone lifts a finger.

Damn... Most of my siblings are escapists... Hoping not to do housework.. as long no one asks... they wouldn't do. Just escaping...day by day... hoping someone will give up and do the dirty work... I don't know. I can do all the shit myself. My grades might take a plunge.. I might have to give up sometime with my galfriend. I don't know. The thing is... Are they all waiting for me to save them? Even if I could...its not a long term solution...but for course... these are just words of anger. My siblings are trying...to change...bit by bit..when their moods are good... The only one who I feel I couldn't connect is my Sister.

It is easy to say that I care... But it is difficult to actually care for someone.